6/01/06 - 12:20am EDT (its... yellow... cake...)
Been a busy while. Dragged Sara kicking and screaming from Minneapolis to Baltimore last weekend (with extended furniture moving, organic dinner with my cousin and his girlfriend, and lots of road food including Culver's Butterburgers (wow) and Crap'a Barrel.

Long insane week at work made slightly better by a new exhaust on the scooter that was good for a big jump in power (now it can do 55mph effortlessly and out accellerate most cars at city speeds but still get 90mpg).

Friday night was a great show at Talking Head where I got to sit in with both Bebes D'Ouef and Judd & Maggie. It feels good to be playing again, especially with such great bands.

Saturday night after work Sara jumped on the back of the scooter and we were off for a night on the town. Then the engine blew up. Spent half an hour on the side of Pratt St with the scooter apart trying to figure out what happened. Gave up,chained it to the back of ESPNzone, drowned my angst in beer and salsa at Fiesta, cabbed it home, and called it a night.


Sunday's hiking plans were scrapped for scooter rescue... but while picking up the van, I managed to spend about 3 hours with Sara at good old 1518 Perrell Ln, soaking it all in for one of the last times. A cloudless sky, a slight breeze... just sitting quietly by the koi pond and down on the swing by the woods was the source for a surprising flood of bittersweet memories
going all the way back to about age 2. Eventually the scooter was rescued, and we treated ourselves to an amazingly good (and cheap) Thai dinner in, of all places, Glen Burnie.

Monday's elaborate plans for Amish-strafing were also scrapped for something more local. I hadn't been to the Baltimore Aquarium since I was about 12... it was awesome then, and is even more so now, even as a jaded quasi-adult. Actually, Sara and I turned into 12 year olds. They had Golden Tamarins and Mexican Dumpy Frogs and giant rays and boy sharks that had to be kept away from girl sharks 'cause its mating season and rain and waterfalls and big turtles and ants and cockatoos and kookaburras and other weird australian things and one of the turtles with the pig nose liked me and a fish swam upside down and... and... and... it was AWESOME!

I think that's going to be the theme for this summer. Good food and fun field trips. And monkeys. And Mexican Dumpy Frogs.


5/12/06 - 12:41am EDT (the tao of cat)





5/10/06 - 9:16pm EDT (bette davis sez)
"Its just that... well, you're all smooth. And I like them bumpy. There's something about a man who fights for what he has. You can see it in his eyes."

After a bit of a fight (with the offline online-only application system), I've got my fingers crossed on something new entirely. Qualifications seem perfectly in line (almost too much so), but not only is it a government job, its military. Chances are someone's been tapped for that role for weeks already. We'll see. Either way, a change is gonna come. It has to.

One last intelligence run to make tomorrow morning, then the full-on squirrel war begins. And a shed. And General Tsao's bean curd makes me happy. The lady at the carry out place smiled when she gave it to me. That's rare. I'm doing my part. None of this makes sense.

Having a very good stereo and iTunes on random is usually good. Somtimes it brings up ghosts from the past. Ones that will eventually make their way into an Oprah's Book Club entry. If I play my cards right. And in that vein, tomorrow I'm also stopping by the house to lay claim to what of it I'd like to hold on to before it all disappears.

Here's to the bumpy...


5/7/06 - 6:59pm EDT (town called malice)

Scooter rally weekend... and I forgot my camera for most of it. The quick summary was drinking and riding Friday, drinking and riding Saturday, good old mod Lithuanian Hall throwdown Saturday night, and they did something in Hampden this morning though I slept in.

Lately I've been running into old acquaintances, a lot. The cool thing is that even though 5 or more years have gone by, nothing's changed. And each time I catch myself about to say, "Its a small world," but its not... its just Baltimore.

Last week, Otis was flirty.




4/21/06 - 7:42pm EDT (and by the chubb foundation)
Youtube rules. Let's regress.

step one
(you know you love it. you know you've missed it.)
step one point one
freak out on some rhyme
groove on urban studies (and saul bass design?)
dream of what you love
have high tech video art counting nightmares
and wrap it all up with Stevie and his talkbox

I really miss the attitude PBS had in the 70s. That strange mix of overeducated, ultra-lefty, urban commando radical, artistic, charitable, unified, and damn funky. One of the only good things to come out of that decade, really.

By the mid-80s, Sesame Street and the rest of PBS seemed to just be a lot more gay. I mean... compare Reading Rainbow to Electric Company. LeVar Burton to Morgan Freeman? Please. One of PBS's first programs was broadcasting a Jefferson Airplane and Quicksilver Messaging Service concert live... then 15 years later it was packed with Lawrence Welk and Yanni?


4/15/06 - 9:38pm EDT (aaargh)
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A customer in the shop today commented, "The golden age of irony is over." I disagree.

(original code by natetrue @ uw)


4/12/06 - 9:45pm EDT (i'll take your chametz)
Thursday my dad told me he was going to propose to his girlfriend of 6 months. The basic summary is as follows. I love and respect my dad more than anyone else on earth. I know he's fully capable of making his own decisions; and obviously he knows more about what he needs than I could ever pretend to. But I have a few concerns... some quite strong, as well as some otherwise unexplainable gut feelings... and honestly, I have a pretty good track record when it comes to those things. I want him to be happy more than anything else, but I can't deny my feelings, or lie to everyone and just put a fake smile on. We've had good discussions as a family about all of this, and have stressed that my reservations aren't at all knee-jerk "mom replacement," kinds of things. I don't know... I'm not trying to make this into a silly family drama, that's never been any of our style... and I should feel good knowing that I've said what I felt, and he has acted on what he felt, and we're all still a happy family... but for some reason its just not that easy.

But its not all emotionally ambiguous *family* drama. I also somehow managed to make one of Rachel's male friends hate himself by sitting near him at an Orioles game. No idea.

OK, its not all ambiguous drama. This weekend also featured the celebration of Erasable Inc's (UM-College Park's improv troupe) 20th anniversary. If you're uncertain what a college improv troupe does, its not merely "Who's Line?" kind of games, but the development of that intense, intellectual creative spontanaety over longer periods and stronger ideas. Sometimes it would drift into very serious theater, and sometimes it would just be fucking hilarious. Either way, having a group of people in your life who are always very focused on intense perception, all-out commitment to spontaneous decisions, and logical transition of focus and energy... is an awesome thing.

 

So Friday night we got together for a banquet, met many folks for the first time (the group is still going, so there were folks there who were born on the year the group actually started), and looked back at videos and stories of the history. Then we crashed a college party, took it over, kicked the college kids out, and had our own house party. Saturday was workshops and time just spent hanging out on campus together. Saturday night was a massive stage show featuring all of the generations of Inc performing within their groups, then sharing the stage for a giant game of stage freeze tag. Then late Saturday night was another massive group party into the morning. We grabbed brunch Sunday, then parted ways...

I should have had more fun in college. I have no idea what I was thinking, but I've been trying to make up for it for the last few years. I think this weekend got me very caught up.

I also forget how the basic ideas of stage improv apply so well to life in general. Be as perceptive as possible, accepting and adding to what is already there; act on what you feel is right, and trust completely in those decisions; make your partner look better than yourself by contributing more than taking (but trust they'll do the same). I could go on, but I won't... it was just good to have a big dose of that this weekend.

Last night, I went over to the current Inc house for fake-Seder. We sang the prayers in barbershop quartet style, figured out that the bread is unleavened becuase Jesus hadn't risen yet, and pondered why the Jews can't just let it go... the whole slavery thing was, like, 6,000 years ago by now, right? (Actually, it was a very fun way to learn the culture, and no one was offended nor took offense).

Yesterday I also received confirmation about dad's engagement via a mass-email.

That rush of improv energy and philosophy came at a good time.

epilogue (1:43am) : it looks like dad's also going to sell the house. Have you ever seen our house? Its been in magazines. Its unlike anything anywhere else in suburbia. Started as nothing and through 37 years of sweat equity it became one of the warmest, most beautiful places on earth, and I've been around. This just hurts. Anyone have $350k I can borrow? I'll pay it back at some point before I'm dead. I hope.


4/11/06 - 10:21pm EDT (one for Bill G)
Mr. Gould was larger than life, with a molecular ego. The kind of guy who set people on fire with his laughter, held a room's attention with his wisdom, and had the lead voice in the caravan of praise eminating out from the sanctuary every Sunday morning. By far one of my favorite people from the old Mt. Oak days, and my friendship with his family has endured despite whataver directions people went from there.

As Will said to me tonight on the phone, "I may have been fit to shine his shoes, but I'll never come close to filling 'em."

Will once told me his dad used to hum this to him as a lullaby... which doesn't surprise me in the least.



3/27/06 - 11:29pm EST (dude)
Boh in hand, ramen on table, its Baltimore storytime. So... last Saturday, I came home from work, and there was a car in my back yard. 90s Grand-Am 4 door... mostly white... ish... with no license plates, a torn up interior, and a Young Life sticker. Awesome. After looking around to make sure the house was ok, I call the city and tell them to get a towing crew up here... figured it was just stolen, and someone dumped it (in my backyard). I'm a little amped with a combination of anger (don't need no more of this crap) and sublime hilarity... then remember that I live next to white trash ninja masters.

So I go over and knock on the door. Toothless crackwhore matriarch (literally on all four counts) answers, "Huh?"

"Hey... you guys know anything about a car in my backyard?"

"Oh... umm... yeah... its my friend's. Its ok."

I'm not really surprised by their involvement, but I'm astonished by the "Its ok" at the end of the answer. Yeah... don't worry that there's a 2 ton piece of steel on your property. A friend of ours put it there. You're fine.

So I let 'em know the city is coming to tow it and go back inside. I go upstairs and start doing laundry. About 10 minutes later, I hear the side door of my house open. "Heeeeyeee!"

I run downstairs, "WHAT THE FU...        oh... hey Mike."

If you don't know who Mike is, he is the god that lives on my block. My first introduction to mike came when he offered to cut down the tree in my front yard with his new chainsaw just after telling me he just took about 20 vicodin. My second introduction to Mike was when I saw him beating in the head of a junky with the bloody chassis of the stolen car stereo (mine) the junky was running away with. Both times shirtless, beZubazed, mullet perfectly key-lit... aglow in the sodium vapor lights.

But today, Mike was just standing in my kitchen looking... surprisingly normal. "Dja see my sweet new car? Guess what, man... $50! $50 damn dollars! Runs great. Belonged to this girl I used to fuck... but I fix her house now and then still, and she gave it to me for $50, 'cause she knew my kids were looking for a car, so I got 'em that one. Wanna take it for a ride? C'mon man! Come drive it."

I just kind of stood there with a blank smile.

"Oh, sorry it was in your yard, but you know... no tags... and they (motioning towards the Jerry Springer Show next door) have a fence. Musta been funny to come home to a car in your yard... but, you know... welcome to Brooklyn, right?"


3/26/06 - 11:44am EST (the failed concept of a day off)
Today was a complete waste. I want a reset button.

But I did clean up the site (eyes/ears sections updated and decluttered - except for the graphics), and I did something I welcome your flak for... I got with 2002 and joined myspace. Don't worry, no blurry camphone pictures of me pouting half naked in front of a mirror with duct tape on my breasts. Yet.


3/24/06 - 12:44am EST (the concept of a day off)
This morning, I saw Kasima was online. First time I'd seen his screenname in 8 months. We got brunch.

Kasima is back in the US by way of a few weeks exploring Laos on rented "lady bikes" (150cc auto-clutch Chinese Honda Wave knockoff) with old and new friends... after having spent 6 months prior in Thailand as a monk... "I'm unplugging" was the synopsis of the conversation. While not strange at all to hear that from Kasima... it definitely isn't something you'd except had you seen him two years ago. But its clearly a more healthy option than "I'm drastically increasing my bandwidth."

Simplicity allows better reception to the more subtle intricacies of joy. Its also easier in the long run. I've often heard people twist that around to imply that un-plugging, or at least attempting to maintain that mental state while still operating in the system, is actually just laziness. That occasionally pops up in the back of my head as well. But I think that's just a defensive response... we're almost conditioned to fear simplicity... to instead seek comfort in being a number, in following the routine, in asking people around us what we should be doing.

And no one ever rode a motorcycle through Laos doing that.

I've been a little more upset lately at the acquisition of the house. This particular one, sure, but also the purchase in general. Had I not done that, I'd still be renting, yes, but I'd have far more mobility than I do now. There were quite a few trips I wanted to take, some with no set plan and the potential for outright relocation and a new beginning.

I have no real career mobility right now, much less a career path. I'm soon going to be starting my third year on what was supposed to be a stop-gap kind of thing. I think my generation is the first where the concept of a career is much more a punch line than anything else, but I specifically have never had one clear idea of what I wanted to do. From elementary school into college, teachers would tell me that I had to pick something, that I was juggling too many things; implying that if I would just pick something, I'd excel at it and make them all proud. And now I work in a motorcycle shop.

And I have damn good taste in music.

Changes are inevitable, just uncharted. And with a more simple approach, it doesn't matter that much. There will always be a hammock. Unplugging doesn't necessarily take becoming a monk or drinking yourself under the table with cute French Canadians in Laos (but it doesn' hurt). But it does often put you at ideological odds with much of what surrounds you, including your own preconditioning. Though, as Kasima and I sat outside drinking coffee and smoking Japanese cigarettes, watching hundreds of white collar government contractor types bombard the chain restaurants, waiting 20 minutes or so to hear their order number called out on a tinny loudspeaker so they could wolf down an $8 sandwich and get back to work... that's not necessarily a bad thing.

Today at the gas pump, an older guy in a beat up pick up truck glanced over at the Vespa. "What kind of mileage?"

"Around 90."

"How much did this fill-up cost?"

"$4 and change... should be good for about 175 miles."

"Heh... well it'll just take you forever to get there, right?"

"Not really, she does 60mph wide open."

"Well... damn.... I need one of them."

(nodding) "...everyone does." He laughed, then let out a heavy sigh. His pump read $40 and was still going.

320 miles in her first week. Not too shabby. New music on your
right. We'll give you the business. Word-


3/16/06 - 10:48pm EST (ringdingdingding)
Been a while. Shortly after New Orleans, I headed up for a fantastic weekend in Minneapolis. Spent time with Sara's friends, as well as catching up with my newly-befriended cousin and his girlfriend in their favorite punk rock tiki bar. I love Minneapolis. It may very well be the perfect city except for a lack of mountains nearby.

Things are on a pretty good groove right now (which based on recent events means something awful is about to happen, I'm sure), but for the time being, its good stuff.

Got me a new vehicle today. Meet Stella... which is bolt for bolt a Vespa PX150 but with an improved motor, suspension, and brakes, built in India and sold by a very cool company in Chicago. 55+ mph, 90mpg, nothing to insure, and damn fun.







Its the most fun thing I've ever ridden. In one day, I've managed to rack up 90 miles (and even one speeding ticket - though it was thankfully a warning. After being a hardass about going 52 in a 30, the cop then smiled and started asking me questions about the scoot.)



Children smile. Old people wave. Cops wag their tails. I can't stop giggling. Yes, this thing induces man-giggle. What's not to love?

Next step, getting Sara her Hello Kitty helmet.



2/27/06 - 11:29pm EST
(if I ever cease to love)



I have more pictures, but this one of two eight year olds reveling in their caught (and kindly donated) beads in a street full of people really says it all.

Forget Anderson Cooper crying, "phantom buses" or Chocolate City. Forget the ridiculous statements by Nagin, the governor, and chief of police (plus every mindless newsreader who repeated the claim) that armed street gangs were "raping babies" in the Superdome... forget that in the worst of moments drama and theatrics won out over truth and reason... we're past that. Things aren't great, but things certainly aren't what many of us wished to be true because of the great television it makes.

Mardi Gras is in full effect, all three of them. Three? Well, there's the frat-party titties-and-beer of Bourbon Street (which is actually the smallest and most insignificant part of Mardi Gras - mostly tourists and the uninformed), there's the grand pagentry of a string of parades put on across the city by the various Krewes, featuring music, elaborate floats, beads, and the uncomfortably frank symbolism of the city's rich and influential standing in over-the-top costumes with masked faces, throwing useless tr
inkets to throngs of greedy commoners begging for more. And then there's the Indians, the bands of black working class who spend all year making elaborate costumes and routines in preparation for militaristic yet non-combative (well, not any more) street "wars" with other tribes from other areas with elaborate chants, songs, dances, and a touch of primal magic.

My time in New Orleans was painfully brief (my whirlwind tour of the city revealed only a taste of the destruction wrought by the duo of hurricanes and civil engineering disasters... though we ventured nowhere near the 9th ward or out into St. Bernard Parish - actually, most of the city was remarkably beautiful, if only in its determination to beautify), and I wasn't really able to head out on my own and explore... but I got enough initial exposure to the first two aspects of Mardi Gras. Unfortunately the third is a little more secretive and hard to come by... at least by middle class honkies hanging out with their relatives.

But the point is... for better or worse, New Orleans is alive, its persevering, and it hasn't lost its ability to party. I feel very fortunate to have made it this year for a wide variety of reasons. Even though it wasn't nearly as much time as I wanted to be able to spend there, my first bite of our Saturday morning king cake revealed a plastic baby... which means I'm responsible for bringing next years'.