

5/10/06 - 9:16pm EDT (bette davis sez)
"Its just that... well, you're all smooth. And I like them bumpy. There's
something about a man who fights for what he has. You can see it in his eyes."
After a bit of a fight (with the offline online-only application system), I've
got my fingers crossed on something new entirely. Qualifications seem perfectly
in line (almost too much so), but not only is it a government job, its military.
Chances are someone's been tapped for that role for weeks already. We'll see.
Either way, a change is gonna come. It has to.
One last intelligence run to make tomorrow morning, then the full-on squirrel
war begins. And a shed. And General Tsao's bean curd makes me happy. The lady
at the carry out place smiled when she gave it to me. That's rare. I'm doing my
part. None of this makes sense.
Having a very good stereo and iTunes on random is usually good. Somtimes it brings
up ghosts from the past. Ones that will eventually make their way into an Oprah's
Book Club entry. If I play my cards right. And in that vein, tomorrow I'm also
stopping by the house to lay claim to what of it I'd like to hold on to before
it all disappears.
Here's to the bumpy...

So Friday night we got
together for a banquet, met many folks for the first time
(the group is still going, so there were folks there who were
born on the year the group actually started), and looked back
at videos and stories of the history. Then we crashed a college
party, took it over, kicked the college kids out, and had
our own house party. Saturday was workshops and time just
spent hanging out on campus together. Saturday night was a
massive stage show featuring all of the generations of Inc
performing within their groups, then sharing the stage for
a giant game of stage freeze tag. Then late Saturday night
was another massive group party into the morning. We grabbed
brunch Sunday, then parted ways...
I should have had more fun in college. I have no idea what
I was thinking, but I've been trying to make up for it for
the last few years. I think this weekend got me very caught
up.
I also forget how the basic ideas of stage improv apply so
well to life in general. Be as perceptive as possible, accepting
and adding to what is already there; act on what you feel
is right, and trust completely in those decisions; make your
partner look better than yourself by contributing more than
taking (but trust they'll do the same). I could go on, but
I won't... it was just good to have a big dose of that this
weekend.
Last night, I went over to the current Inc house for fake-Seder.
We sang the prayers in barbershop quartet style, figured out
that the bread is unleavened becuase Jesus hadn't risen yet,
and pondered why the Jews can't just let it go... the whole
slavery thing was, like, 6,000 years ago by now, right? (Actually,
it was a very fun way to learn the culture, and no one was
offended nor took offense).
Yesterday I also received confirmation about dad's engagement
via a mass-email.
That rush of improv energy and philosophy came at a good time.
epilogue (1:43am) : it looks like dad's also going to sell
the house. Have you ever seen our house? Its been in magazines.
Its unlike anything anywhere else in suburbia. Started as
nothing and through 37 years of sweat equity it became one
of the warmest, most beautiful places on earth, and I've been
around. This just hurts. Anyone have $350k I can borrow? I'll
pay it back at some point before I'm dead. I hope.
4/11/06 - 10:21pm EDT
(one for Bill G)
Mr. Gould was larger than life, with a molecular ego. The
kind of guy who set people on fire with his laughter, held
a room's attention with his wisdom, and had the lead voice
in the caravan of praise eminating out from the sanctuary
every Sunday morning. By far one of my favorite people from
the old Mt. Oak days, and my friendship with his family has
endured despite whataver directions people went from there.
As Will said to me tonight on the phone, "I may have
been fit to shine his shoes, but I'll never come close to
filling 'em."
Will once told me his dad used to hum
this to him as a lullaby... which doesn't surprise me
in the least.
Kasima is back in the US by
way of a few weeks exploring Laos on rented "lady
bikes" (150cc auto-clutch Chinese Honda Wave knockoff)
with old and new friends... after having spent 6 months prior
in Thailand as a monk...
"I'm unplugging" was the synopsis of the conversation.
While not strange at all to hear that from Kasima... it definitely
isn't something you'd except had you seen him two years ago.
But its clearly a more healthy option than "I'm drastically
increasing my bandwidth."
Simplicity allows better reception to the more subtle intricacies
of joy. Its also easier in the long run. I've often heard
people twist that around to imply that un-plugging, or at
least attempting to maintain that mental state while still
operating in the system, is actually just laziness. That occasionally
pops up in the back of my head as well. But I think that's
just a defensive response... we're almost conditioned to fear
simplicity... to instead seek comfort in being a number, in
following the routine, in asking people around us what we
should be doing.
And no one ever rode a motorcycle through Laos doing that.
I've been a little more upset lately at the acquisition of
the house. This particular one, sure, but also the purchase
in general. Had I not done that, I'd still be renting, yes,
but I'd have far more mobility than I do now. There were quite
a few trips I wanted to take, some with no set plan and the
potential for outright relocation and a new beginning.
I have no real career mobility right now, much less a career
path. I'm soon going to be starting my third year on what
was supposed to be a stop-gap kind of thing. I think my generation
is the first where the concept of a career is much more a
punch line than anything else, but I specifically have never
had one clear idea of what I wanted to do. From elementary
school into college, teachers would tell me that I had to
pick something, that I was juggling too many things; implying
that if I would just pick something, I'd excel at it and make
them all proud. And now I work in a motorcycle shop.
And I have damn good taste in music.
Changes are inevitable, just uncharted. And with a more simple
approach, it doesn't matter that much. There will always be
a hammock. Unplugging doesn't necessarily take becoming a
monk or drinking yourself under the table with cute French
Canadians in Laos (but it doesn' hurt). But it does often
put you at ideological odds with much of what surrounds you,
including your own preconditioning. Though, as Kasima and
I sat outside drinking coffee and smoking Japanese cigarettes,
watching hundreds of white collar government contractor types
bombard the chain restaurants, waiting 20 minutes or so to
hear their order number called out on a tinny loudspeaker
so they could wolf down an $8 sandwich and get back to work...
that's not necessarily a bad thing.
Today at the gas pump, an older guy in a beat up pick up truck
glanced over at the Vespa. "What kind of mileage?"
"Around 90."
"How much did this fill-up cost?"
"$4 and change... should be good for about 175 miles."
"Heh... well it'll just take you forever to get there,
right?"
"Not really, she does 60mph wide open."
"Well... damn.... I need one of them."
(nodding) "...everyone does." He laughed, then let
out a heavy sigh. His pump read $40 and was still going.
320 miles in her first week. Not too
shabby. New music on your
right. We'll give you the business. Word-
3/16/06 - 10:48pm EST (ringdingdingding)
Been a while. Shortly after New Orleans, I headed up for a fantastic
weekend in Minneapolis. Spent time with Sara's friends, as well
as catching up with my newly-befriended cousin and his girlfriend
in their favorite punk rock tiki bar. I love Minneapolis. It
may very well be the perfect city except for a lack of mountains
nearby.
Things are on a pretty good groove right now (which based on
recent events means something awful is about to happen, I'm
sure), but for the time being, its good stuff.
Got me a new vehicle today. Meet Stella... which is bolt for
bolt a Vespa PX150 but with an improved motor, suspension, and
brakes, built in India and sold by a very cool company in Chicago.
55+ mph, 90mpg, nothing to insure, and damn fun.



Its the most fun thing I've ever ridden. In one day, I've managed
to rack up 90 miles (and even one speeding ticket - though it
was thankfully a warning. After being a hardass about going
52 in a 30, the cop then smiled and started asking me questions
about the scoot.)

Children smile. Old people wave. Cops wag their tails. I can't
stop giggling. Yes, this thing induces man-giggle. What's not
to love?
Next step, getting Sara her Hello Kitty helmet.
2/27/06 - 11:29pm EST (if I ever
cease to love)

I have more pictures, but this one of two eight year olds reveling
in their caught (and kindly donated) beads in a street full
of people really says it all.
Forget Anderson Cooper crying, "phantom buses" or
Chocolate City. Forget the ridiculous statements by Nagin, the
governor, and chief of police (plus every mindless newsreader
who repeated the claim) that armed street gangs were "raping
babies" in the Superdome... forget that in the worst of
moments drama and theatrics won out over truth and reason...
we're past that. Things aren't great, but things certainly aren't
what many of us wished to be true because of the great television
it makes.
Mardi Gras is in full effect, all three of them. Three? Well,
there's the frat-party titties-and-beer of Bourbon Street (which
is actually the smallest and most insignificant part of Mardi
Gras - mostly tourists and the uninformed), there's the grand
pagentry of a string of parades put on across the city by the
various Krewes, featuring music, elaborate floats, beads, and
the uncomfortably frank symbolism of the city's rich and influential
standing in over-the-top costumes with masked faces, throwing
useless trinkets to throngs of
greedy commoners begging for more. And then there's the Indians,
the bands of black working class who spend all year making elaborate
costumes and routines in preparation for militaristic yet non-combative
(well, not any more) street "wars" with other tribes
from other areas with elaborate chants, songs, dances, and a
touch of primal magic.
My time in New Orleans was painfully brief (my whirlwind tour
of the city revealed only a taste of the destruction wrought
by the duo of hurricanes and civil engineering disasters...
though we ventured nowhere near the 9th ward or out into St.
Bernard Parish - actually, most of the city was remarkably beautiful,
if only in its determination to beautify), and I wasn't really
able to head out on my own and explore... but I got enough initial
exposure to the first two aspects of Mardi Gras. Unfortunately
the third is a little more secretive and hard to come by...
at least by middle class honkies hanging out with their relatives.
But the point is... for better or worse, New Orleans is alive,
its persevering, and it hasn't lost its ability to party. I
feel very fortunate to have made it this year for a wide variety
of reasons. Even though it wasn't nearly as much time as I wanted
to be able to spend there, my first bite of our Saturday morning
king cake revealed a plastic baby... which means I'm responsible
for bringing next years'.